So I'm a homemaker, what's self-esteem got to do with it? A whole lot I can tell you.....I never imagined in my wildest dreams that I would be a housewife, uh homemaker I mean. The picture I had of myself was that I would have some high-flying career and I would travel the world saving humanity. So I studied and worked hard, got a Masters degree and all. So being a housewife was totally opposite from what I had planned.
Do you understand, dear reader, what it means to be a housewife? You do all sorts of house chores and it all seems normal until you miss a spot and someone is making comments. You take care of your family, especially the kids. It's worse when they are tiny and can't speak. You don't get paid for the jobs you do and what you do is priceless You start to wonder why this is what you ended up doing after all the time and money spent getting a degree.
It's bad enough when you go out and you say you are a housewife. People generally think that housewives are lazy and idle.. From the friend or neighbour who wants to keep you busy with free baby sitting, to the person out there that asks why you husband could not open a shop for you. A SHOP!!!! For crying out loud what am I supposed to sell?!
It's worse still when you have to depend on your husband financially in a period when money is scarce.. All these factors have a great effect on your self-esteem. When you cannot really meet up with some financial obligations to your extended family and they start to wonder what you are doing sitting at home. Oh I forgot to mention how it feels when you see your course mates doing seemingly well and getting fat salaries.
You've really got to be high on self-esteem to believe that you are doing the right thing, if not you'll find yourself having to justify your existence as a person.
How have I coped? I'll let you know in my next post.....tudulu....
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